emotional freedom techniques

work in the invisible world
as least as hard as you do in the visible

from Work in the Invisible
by Rumi


Yesterday we started the eft techniques. Through muscle testing she decided my emotional traumas were acquired before I was born. No surprise there. My mother had 2 children before me and before I was born had an abortion. This was the 50s and abortions were illegal but apparently one of my Aunts arranged one for her. Well she got pregnant again (me) and for whatever reason decided to have me. Fast forward to years later when I was trying to get pregnant. I finally did and it sent my dead husband into the darkness. Just like my mother. I remember telling him I was going to have this baby regardless of how he felt. And I did. And my own pregnancy was one of the happiest times of my life. I worried no more abut my weight, I had no menstrual pain. And it was actually a good time between the two of us. But the darkness came again for him too. And two weeks after Dani was born he was hospitialized for the first time.

I feel like I have been run over by a truck.